Do You Know?

Do you know?

Do you know what I am saying?

You call me a friend

You lean on me

Day in and day out

Never asking

Never meaning

“How are you?”

“I'm fine.”

But that's what you want to hear

You never want to hear me.

Oh, I'm speaking too much again?

Let me say it louder.

“I can be heard!”

I'm not always happy.

I'm not always alert.

I'm sad.

I'm tired.

I feel broken

“You are the most optimistic person I know.”

Maybe that's because I only have hope.

Can you not think?

All I have is hope.

Do you not know?

I sit here crying,

comforted only by hope.

And you think I'm too self centered.

You say that you are more important,

That I have to focus on you.

Guess what?

I'm done!

I'm done with pretending I'm okay,

I'm done with only satisfying your needs.

I am a person!

I have needs!

I'm done with it all!

If I can't ever ask a thing of you,

Then why do I say that I love you?

Why do I call you a friend,

When all you do is take?

Why do you think hurting me is okay?

Don't you know?

My feelings matter too!

And yet,

You call me selfish.